What is it with memories that is so disturbing? Why is it I feel sad just by reading old text messages? The thought of 'oh, we were so close' has dragged me into this silly 'what if..' state.
What if I still with him now? I won't be so happy as I am now. What if I insisted of marrying him for the sake of a married status? I will be bitter since I don't love him that much. What if we're still friends? I will hate him for his ignorance and arrogance.
And after 10 minutes.. it wasn't 'what if..' anymore, turned into, "What was I thinking? I'm so stupid.."
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