Rainy season is mellow season. And since December and January (my birth month) is where rain fall the hardest, it become the mellowest (is that the right word? :D) state for me. Welcome to my December.
And where do I start? Oh, the "desole miel" post I wrote the last time? Well, it didn't end well with the guy. There's too much misunderstanding, I chose to quit. You'd say I shouldn't, that this probably The One, but no. Life is about choices, and I'm gonna use that this time.
It's still nice that after all the misunderstandings, all the girlfriends and problems he has, he still asked me, "So, what's the deal between us two?" And I laughed quite hard at the question. And a bit surprised. I thought he'd never ask.
I remember I said, "Right now, we're friends. I'm not gonna ditch our friendship just because we failed to have a relationship. But that's it. Just friends". He nodded. And put some sad smiley on his BBM profile picture.
But really, what did he expect? Did he want me to say, "We're obviously lover, silly. Can you see?" But that's not the case. I mean, he came with his heavy baggage of betrayals and many fiancees and he's in a relationship right now, and he's still asking me what about us two?? I really don't understand guys.
But that was probably the closure I was looking (hoping?) for. That somehow, we're not meant to be. And I wish him happiness, really. I liked this guy once, and I always love to see people I like to be happy. And no, I'm not going to shout Adele's lyric "nevermind I'll find, someone like youuuu...." cause I'm not looking for someone like him. He's ok, but he just can't made up his mind. And it's so not sexy.. :D
But somehow, I just knew that he will try to find me again.. in near future.. Say, next week? Wanna bet?
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