You know, I don't know where my heart is, right now. It's still somewhere inside my chest, I'm sure, but it no longer loyal to my head. It's like, your brain want it to think of one think, and the heart is not at all want to think about it (anymore).
Puzzling? Yes, it sure does. But then again, since when do life became simple for me?
Anyway, ever since the break up, my gals have tried to interest me in joining online dating and they actually created an account for me, despite of my protests. Finally I go along with them, not so sure why, maybe because I'm hopeful that I'll find someone there, or just to shut them up. But they're nice friends, my girls.
But deep down, if I can be honest, there's this one guy I just can't stop thinking about. Yeah, it's the guy I kissed at the park. I can't get him out of my head. I thought that after we meet and talk, I could simply say, ok we're not compatible, say goodbye now. But I never do that. I never say goodbye. And letting him kissed me again, surely not helping with anything.
Maybe I'm just lonely. Maybe it's him, he's my soulmate. Maybe I just want to think about someone. Maybe because he's so sexually attractive. Maybe it just the fact that he's got engaged that I'm just afraid that I'll lose him for good. But if he's happily engaged, why would he still find me? Why did we just keep finding each other after 3 years? And why do we have silly things in common, like the type of fridge we like (it's LG Samurai, I think).
Or maybe, he has stolen my heart.. Hahahaha..
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