So He Got A New Job..

Yes, he got this new and exciting job, with triple times payroll. I have to admit, a raise that big could excite almost everyone, including my bf. And he suddenly have this newfound confident, it's charming.

I kinda like this new self esteem of his, and he's less and less complain about lacking, financially. But there are other "side effects", if you can call it that way, that I'm worry about. For starter, he's starting to look more attractive. I mean, with his new confidence, it shows. And second of all, he started to be busy, and unfortunately, so did I.

And unlike the first times we went out, now I'm not so generous in leaving my work for him. I use to did that, made him sometimes forget that I actually have a day job. And when I'm back to my busy-self, he looked surprise. Well, surprise honey! I do have to earn my living too..

I have experienced this before with my then bf. He got this new job, double in salary, become more attractive, more busy, and ended up with me feeling "we don't have anything in common anymore. And to be frankly brutal, your life is not that interesting to me anymore". And we break up. No wonder my sister once said that relationships who could last through getting a new job (and another new job and so on) is more likely to end up in a happy marriage. Coz I find it quite hard. And there I'm complaining again..

I mean, he got all the right to be bragging about his new exciting life and work, but will I survive being neglected and/or taken for granted since we don't make the same amount of paycheck anymore? Plus, it stressed me that though I'm doing thing that I love, I'm always lacking in financial sector. Financial security haunts me again and getting older, it scares me even more each time..